Sitting here, thinking back on the better days, the days gone past,
Before the change, the way things were, when everything was new and pure,
When life was free and filled with hope, when everything was explained in full,
Those days are near forgotten, the ache of today replaces them,
What about tomorrow?
Will I have reached the goal, or died forgotten, with not a thing to show?
"Don't get your hopes up son, there are no guarantees in life but one - that eventually you'll die. It's a guarantee you cannot escape from."
So I'm sitting here, all alone,
It's always worse when no one's home,
Why should I continue on if death is the only final outcome?
To pursue some mythical success that some have been fooled to think exists, only to meet frustration and die?
Still they go on trying and trying and trying and...
I refuse to live that lie,
But what is there but to die?
I knew I require some change, but every day comes up the same...fruitless.
Failure - Far too weak, can't even stand on your own two feet,
Spineless - You could never make it in this world of ours,
Weakling - They scream at me, "Inside yourself is the strength you need"
Hopeless - The strong survive the weak are devoured.
This world betrays,
This world, it feasts upon me.
Failure - So many say I slow them down I'm in the way,
Spineless - Got me convinced they've reached security,
Weakling - Got me pegged, as if alone they've reached success,
Hopeless - All I am, the difference between.
This world betrays,
This world, it feasts upon me.
Failure - I feel defeat but I see now they're hiding something,
Spineless - Draw my attention far away from hope,
Weakling - Away from love, they shake their fists at God above,
Hopeless - Could it be? He shakes the lie they hold.
This world betrays,
This world, it feasts upon me,
World betrays,
This world, it feasts upon me.
This world betrays,
This world, it feasts upon me.
My loneliness is evidence of my failure,
To stay would mean to pursue some goal that has eluded me so far,
They tell me that I need only myself, that I need no one else,
Unfortunately that way of life leaves me nothing but hell.